We fumbled through our wedding ceremony, laughing as I mixed up which hand to place his ring on, and just like that we were married!
My wedding was a blur. I’ve been married 3 months now and little bits and pieces are coming back to me. Fragments of rushing to get ready, my mom zipping up my dress, laughing with my bridesmaids, drawing shaky breaths in waiting for him to see me.
I became a puddle on Justin’s shoulder when it began to rain right as the guests arrived. He knew I wanted the wedding outside, so he convinced everyone sit in the misty Washington rain. When I walked down the aisle it stopped completely and the sun came out!
We tried and failed to see all of the ones we loved who showed up for our special day.We barely ate any food, and I may or may not have walk through a grocery store in my wedding dress later that night. We laughed as Justin’s dad teased us about grand-kids and I held back tears when I had my dance with my Dad.
As the evening ended, we walked through a tunnel of bubbles to our getaway car. That’s when it showed up–A massive double rainbow, right over the spot we had gotten married.
Fast-forward months before the wedding day. I woke up one morning and my world went from carefree and in love to a full on panic attack. That lead into off and on panic attacks,and terrible dreams every night. It was the hardest season I had ever experience in my life. That’s when rainbows started showing up. Most of the time I saw them when I was with Justin.
What does this have to do with my wedding?
Justin is the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. He is precious to me. Falling in love with him brought up questions in me like—
What he dies? What if we fall out of love? What if something bad happens to him? Even though he feels like mine. He’s not mine, he’s God’s. I have to trust God that He has a purpose.
When rainbows would show up, I was reminded, just like Noah was with the first rainbow, that God is trustworthy. He keeps his promises. He loves me.
Two weeks before our wedding I sat outside with Jesus. I asked Him if He could make a show up rainbow at our wedding, and then quickly talked myself out of believing He would come through for me.
“Asking for a rainbow is crazy. It’s not important. I can live without it. Never mind Jesus…”
I forgot about that prayer until my wedding day when I was face to face with a massive double rainbow, reminding me…He’s faithful. He loves me. Making a rainbow show up isn’t an important thing, but I am.
